Days

I took my Philosophy final, I felt pretty confident when I walked into class. I was actually excited to see what questions there where and wondered if I would be able to answer them with ease. I wish semesters lasted as long as a summer session. I have July 27th-Aug 14th freeee, weeeee! I feel like I actually learned a few things from this class, but I'm sure I have felt this before and come three years later I just remember bits and pieces that are probably incorrect. I am pretty sure I got a B in the class. I seem to be an average student. It is unfortunate because I am most positive if I put a little bit more effort I would be able to get a better grade. What is going to happen when I start taking classes that will be difficult for me? I have to realize that I WILL HAVE TO take time from doing unproductive things and study, study until my eyes burn and my mind is clusterfucked.

 Anyway, I really enjoyed my Philosophy class, Dr. King (hahahaha) is an awesome teacher with a great personality and sense of humor. I would really love to have a beer/coffee with her and have her enlighten me with her knowledge. I have my schedule for Fall and I am FINALLY taking a dreaded math class. I also got Political Science (blah, ugh, what the f) and an online Intro to Psych class. I sure do love me them online courses, yeh?

I also have three classes wait listed, Cinema, Film Photography, and Communication Studies. I am aiming for the Cinema class because it would work perfectly with my schedule, my second choice is Photography because I sure miss the darkroom and I would really like to learn the technical aspects of something I really enjoy doing. The issue with a photo class right now is funds, I don't think I have the funds and I don't qualify for Financial Aid right now. The third option, Communication Studies, would require a large time gap, I don't want to drive to Rancho twice in a day and I sure as hell don't know what I'd do with so much time. Maybe I should just take three classes, who knows if I am truly ready for a full load, but sometimes I tell myself that I just need to 'do it'.

 Tomorrow is the funeral, I wonder how it's gonna be. It is going to be a catholic mass, I am kind of interested because I never really went to church. My parents are going too. I wonder how A is truly feeling...

Things have been a little different lately... A's dad was diagnosed with ALS last year and it progressed very quickly and he passed away Thursday morning. I can't wrap my head around the fact that my boyfriend lost his father, it is really heart breaking. It is especially heart breaking when A tells me that he misses his papa. I'm just worried because A tends to get really depressed and he doesn't vent or show any emotions..
Anyway, these pictures were taken on the Fourth of July, the only fireworks I bought myself some Morning Glory's and  Piccolo Pete's for A, them shit cost me fifteen dollars, ridiculous. 
I was excited to finally use my camera and the sparklers to do this light writing nonsense.
I feel kind of guilty because I've been missing a lot of class, but I'm keeping up with the reading. There really isn't any homework, the syllabus mentions pop quizzes, but I'm not too sure she will do any of that. I just have a few more weeks left, can't miss anymore. No more excuses.